Thieves and Rice
Jun. 17th, 2021 02:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sleeplesssoulA piracy website stole my work and they are giving it for free since 2 months ago.
Some years ago, i quit my job as a high school teacher (actually I didn't quit, I'm just in a succession of sabbatical nonpaid years) because my anxiety and depression could not handle it anymore, details in another entry.
Anyway, since then I've been maintaining myself economically working online, teaching what i know, selling things, YouTube, etc.
One of those activities is selling crochet patterns, pretty complex ones, it takes me weeks to create every pattern, and one of those, actually my best seller, has been stolen and posted as i said in a pirate website :(
That event triggered my anxiety and i could not work for several days, or write or anything. I was working in a new pattern and now i cant find the motivation to continue.
Meanwhile the books are taking shape, i detailed them and gave the texture but for the same reason described above i didn't paint them yet... at least I see some progress.
I have been reading in Spanish, one of my favorite authors, he is a genius, Julio Cortazar is his name, his use of the language to create new realities is unbelievable, and unbelievable as well is I discover that reading in Spanish improves my writing in English. I mean, writing English immediately after read a couple of hours in Spanish feels more fluid, my grammar mistakes are still there since i learned English speaking it in India and not in a class. Hopefully writing here will help.
I made the wire soul for Hedwig as well, but I am having problems with R and is not like because I'm mad at him now I don't want to continue making his gift, i feel inspired to do it, also I feel excited to send it to him, even with the problems, but anxiety drains my energy and fill my brain with a world of words that do not let me do anything, or have a minute of inner peace.
In other news I just order a slow cooker, crock pot or whatever it is called, in Spanish we call it rice cooker. I have been cooking since i was 7, long tradition of women passed trough generations, same recipes, same procedures, so adding a twist of technology to the practice will be interesting.
Some years ago, i quit my job as a high school teacher (actually I didn't quit, I'm just in a succession of sabbatical nonpaid years) because my anxiety and depression could not handle it anymore, details in another entry.
Anyway, since then I've been maintaining myself economically working online, teaching what i know, selling things, YouTube, etc.
One of those activities is selling crochet patterns, pretty complex ones, it takes me weeks to create every pattern, and one of those, actually my best seller, has been stolen and posted as i said in a pirate website :(
That event triggered my anxiety and i could not work for several days, or write or anything. I was working in a new pattern and now i cant find the motivation to continue.
Meanwhile the books are taking shape, i detailed them and gave the texture but for the same reason described above i didn't paint them yet... at least I see some progress.
I have been reading in Spanish, one of my favorite authors, he is a genius, Julio Cortazar is his name, his use of the language to create new realities is unbelievable, and unbelievable as well is I discover that reading in Spanish improves my writing in English. I mean, writing English immediately after read a couple of hours in Spanish feels more fluid, my grammar mistakes are still there since i learned English speaking it in India and not in a class. Hopefully writing here will help.
I made the wire soul for Hedwig as well, but I am having problems with R and is not like because I'm mad at him now I don't want to continue making his gift, i feel inspired to do it, also I feel excited to send it to him, even with the problems, but anxiety drains my energy and fill my brain with a world of words that do not let me do anything, or have a minute of inner peace.
In other news I just order a slow cooker, crock pot or whatever it is called, in Spanish we call it rice cooker. I have been cooking since i was 7, long tradition of women passed trough generations, same recipes, same procedures, so adding a twist of technology to the practice will be interesting.
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Date: 2021-06-18 01:42 pm (UTC)