A Sleepless Soul

 Ok so, I just lost a huge post I wrote trying to check the crosspost settings  ╥﹏╥
Anyway... they were just random thoughts as usual.. 
Summary: 
1. R is my boyfriend now ( about time, after 3 years haha) and we are coping with our mental health conditions together.
2. The refrigerator is still broken.
3. My kitchen and living room got flooded because I left the back door opened and it rained really hard. (I don't want to tell you what happened with the cats litter ^ ~ ^ )
4. I'm reading Cronopios and Famas by Julio Cortazar, one of my favorite writers, and say that its amazing will not be enough so I found the translation of some parts of the book that I'm going to be sharing with you in this one and next posts :)

I'm going to write a full post about the book and probably another about Julio Cortazar, for now I leave you with this gem <3 Tell me what do you think and if you would like to read more of the author.

A piracy website stole my work and they are giving it for free since 2 months ago.

Some years ago, i quit my job as a high school teacher (actually I didn't quit, I'm just in a succession of sabbatical nonpaid years) because my anxiety and depression could not handle it anymore, details in another entry.
Anyway, since then I've been maintaining myself economically working online, teaching what i know, selling things, YouTube, etc.
One of those activities is selling crochet patterns, pretty complex ones, it takes me weeks to create every pattern, and one of those, actually my best seller, has been stolen and posted as i said in a pirate website :(
That event triggered my anxiety and i could not work for several days, or write or anything. I was working in a new pattern and now i cant find the motivation to continue.
Meanwhile the books are taking shape, i detailed them and gave the texture but for the same reason described above i didn't paint them yet... at least I see some progress.
I have been reading in Spanish, one of my favorite authors, he is a genius, Julio Cortazar is his name, his use of the language to create new realities is unbelievable, and unbelievable as well is I discover that reading in Spanish improves my writing in English. I mean, writing English immediately after read a couple of hours in Spanish feels more fluid, my grammar mistakes are still there since i learned English speaking it in India and not in a class. Hopefully writing here will help.

I made the wire soul for Hedwig as well, but I am having problems with R and is not like because I'm mad at him now I don't want to continue making his gift, i feel inspired to do it, also I feel excited to send it to him, even with the problems, but anxiety drains my energy and fill my brain with a world of words that do not let me do anything, or have a minute of inner peace.

In other news I just order a slow cooker, crock pot or whatever it is called, in Spanish we call it rice cooker. I have been cooking since i was 7, long tradition of women passed trough generations, same recipes, same procedures, so adding a twist of technology to the practice will be interesting.

It's my first entry here.
But no.
As probably many, i had a journal here many years ago, and since then I didn't find a blogging place that feels like LJ. But that is the topic of another entry, I'm not going to make a proper introduction now.
I'm working on a 1/6 scale replica of Hedwig standing on some books, the books obviously the same scale. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's Harry Potter stuff. The man I'm dating likes to display his movies with figures and props, so I thought it was a good idea to make something nice for him. The plan is to make Hedwig in needle felting and sculpt the books in epoxy clay.
I was working happily stressed (as in every project) when it occurred to me that I should show him the progress, which was the initial sculpting of the clay blocks... (he does not know I'm making them for him) and his first reaction was: they are coming out perfect but that is not 1/6 scale...
Yeah, he has the superpower of noticing inaccuracies faster than flash running :/
I did not believe it, but then I checked the dimensions and my annotations, and (again :/ ) he was right, i made the books 1/4 scale, all my notes and measurements matched the 1/4 scale, but I swear I planned it to be 1/6 :(
Now, maybe this not much of a problem, but I'm going through really hard times in my life and I have always suffered from short memory loss, so this makes me think I'm getting worse..or something..
I don't know...
Here you can see the blocks in what I thought was 1/6 scale and in pencil how it should be... u_u


So I'm going to start over and post the updates here.. stay tuned..